I wonder what it feels like to have a normal life? How do you tell someone you can't stand it being around them, but you care enough to stay? not for your own benefits, but for their own well being? when do you know it's enough? maybe when your heart just stops? Is it normal to dislike someone so much it irritates you to hear their sound? or smell? or presence? I love my daughter so much I can't risk anything...I wonder if I have humanity left in me...why do I have all these feelings?