I wish I can set myself free of worries, so I can go on with my daily life normally without worrying of someone needing something, or someone having health issues...I want to take my baby girl on vacation sooo bad......but I know it will just be another waste of money & time, it won't be enjoyable since all we do is worry about him if he's gonna be okay......everything is on hold in this sad life, and it's unfair to my child to have missed her childhood just because she had to grow up fast...to understand the whole situation, to make sure he's ok, that we're ok....I wish I did something different....how could anyone be so selfish? she is missing a lot of her childhood..and it's all my fault:(