" T R A P P E D " - one of my most hated word, and yet I'm living it:( how do you know when enough is enough? yes, just keep on waiting, waiting for that time, will it be too late? hopefully not...karma? perhaps.. was it that bad? guess so:( how do you fix it? can't while humanity is still in me..I wish I were different...

Just got a message from someone I was close to some 30 years ago,its amazing how its like to be reminded of how special I once was....I miss my old self....I want to feel human again...where oh where do I begin?