How does it feel like, after an all day's work, to come home and just sit for a moment and breathe freely? What is it like to feel taken care of, safe & protected by your spouse? I wish...I wish...I wish upon a star.....

I wonder what it feels like to have a normal life? How do you tell someone you can't stand it being around them, but you care enough to stay? not for your own benefits, but for their own well being? when do you know it's enough? maybe when your heart just stops? Is it normal to dislike someone so much it irritates you to hear their sound? or smell? or presence? I love my daughter so much I can't risk anything...I wonder if I have humanity left in me...why do I have all these feelings?

Superbowl Sunday today! I was hoping he'd be busy watching it, but oh no, he was busy ruining our day! All I want is to take my girl practice driving then go to the mall, but he wants to tag along with us not even knowing what or where he wants!why can't we do our things separate ways? and plan to do things that we can do together without pissing each other off? yup, day didn't go well at all....what a waste of a beautiful day.

Got a lot done today! redoing the front plant & flowers, raked the leaves in the backyard,did a load of laundry, I even got to snake the shower drain, & got everything in order! yipee!!! I got to be a gardener & plumber today! now, time to sort the bills & figure out if we have enough to even pay them...

I'm actually pleased today, why? because my long lost brother who I haven't seen in about 17 years, and haven't heard in about 5 years, just added me as a friend on his facebook!!!! he facebooked me & found me!!! he had better luck than I did when I was trying to find him...I miss him...and my other brothers, some I haven't seen over 20 years...if only I'd win lottery, first thing I would do is gather all of them & save them from suffering their poverty lives...oh, & yes, my mother too..I guess.

Today was A-okay...no particular complains, except just cold & windy, but's it's okay...

So, my usual 10 minute drive to work today took me almost an hour...way to start the day! So looking forward to end the day, then I get home, and this is what I come home to, my husband, with his tv remote on hand, welcoming me, & this is how it goes:

him: sooo, you're home. by the way, I noticed that our shower seems
to be backed up again, just so you know.

me: alright, maybe this weekend I can get my snake to clean it up.

Yup! I get to be a plumber sometimes too, after playing electrician just a night before...