I wonder what it feels like to have a normal life? How do you tell someone you can't stand it being around them, but you care enough to stay? not for your own benefits, but for their own well being? when do you know it's enough? maybe when your heart just stops? Is it normal to dislike someone so much it irritates you to hear their sound? or smell? or presence? I love my daughter so much I can't risk anything...I wonder if I have humanity left in me...why do I have all these feelings?

Superbowl Sunday today! I was hoping he'd be busy watching it, but oh no, he was busy ruining our day! All I want is to take my girl practice driving then go to the mall, but he wants to tag along with us not even knowing what or where he wants!why can't we do our things separate ways? and plan to do things that we can do together without pissing each other off? yup, day didn't go well at all....what a waste of a beautiful day.

Got a lot done today! redoing the front plant & flowers, raked the leaves in the backyard,did a load of laundry, I even got to snake the shower drain, & got everything in order! yipee!!! I got to be a gardener & plumber today! now, time to sort the bills & figure out if we have enough to even pay them...

I'm actually pleased today, why? because my long lost brother who I haven't seen in about 17 years, and haven't heard in about 5 years, just added me as a friend on his facebook!!!! he facebooked me & found me!!! he had better luck than I did when I was trying to find him...I miss him...and my other brothers, some I haven't seen over 20 years...if only I'd win lottery, first thing I would do is gather all of them & save them from suffering their poverty lives...oh, & yes, my mother too..I guess.

Today was A-okay...no particular complains, except just cold & windy, but's it's okay...

So, my usual 10 minute drive to work today took me almost an hour...way to start the day! So looking forward to end the day, then I get home, and this is what I come home to, my husband, with his tv remote on hand, welcoming me, & this is how it goes:

him: sooo, you're home. by the way, I noticed that our shower seems
to be backed up again, just so you know.

me: alright, maybe this weekend I can get my snake to clean it up.

Yup! I get to be a plumber sometimes too, after playing electrician just a night before...

hi, been a while...maybe because I gave up on everything...ok, maybe not...I will try to visit this blog everyday from now on...this can be my "venting place", or my best friend (other than my daughter of course), I don't like people very much, except my daughter, people are constant disappointments.

Ok, so I just left to go pick my daughter up from school, my husband (34 yrs older than me, remember), called on my cell in a panick, that our stove oven just died on him while in the middle of cooking, our conversation goes:
me: go in the back & reset the power switch
him: hell I don't know where & how to f****n do it!
me: fine, I'll hurry home to do it myself...
This is how it always goes in our home....same goes when we have plumbing issues, no matter where I am, in fact, I always come home with our bathroon smelling like a public restroom because he's scared to flush it, "it might overflow on me & I don't know how to stop the f***n water!", is his excuse. why me???? karma????